Your second chance

Did you ever get a second chance to start a old friendship or get to make a right decision the second time around. I met him in 1995 in the  place where every coming of age story begins high school. You know the guy that you had a crush on that you always wanted to say something to but never had the guts or courage to. Every girl had this. The jock that passed in the hall way with that captivated smile that make the cheerleaders go crazy

How about your best friend that just so happens to be the rumored play boy. Well I had one of those. He was a close friend. He would talk to me about anything.The funny thing at the time he never could see what I saw in him. His compassion, his charm, his sexiness, his engaging eyes. Told you I had it bad. But there was a catch (here it comes) he is in fact in love with your friend. I mean really in love. Of course the classic 80's or even now scenario. You like him but he likes her. He would talk to me about her all the time. How can he make her notice him or get her to become his girlfriend.

I hated every minute that I got to be with him and he would rather talk about her then pay attention to the girl that would give him all the love and attention that he deserves. My typical day with him would start out with all three of us in the same class and when she had to go to class me and him would go cut together and stay in the auditorium. The sad part is that I would still try to be near him. Even though I knew I did not have a chance and all he wanted was her I was there. I wanted to still be his friend even if he wanted some one else.

I am such a gluten for punishment. LOL. The one thing I did not like about myself is how I could put my friends happiness before mine. Yeah what a self lessI am. The way he would light up when he spoke about her or even thought about her made me feel like shit pardon my french. Who am I to stop his want for the women "he loves". Yes I put quotes in there.

Flash to 1997 its the last year before graduation is about to happen. By this time she knows about how he feels and decides to come to me to inform me about his feelings. Here I am in the perfect situation. He professes his love to her and she can't handle it. How do I know you ask because she tells me. She is not ready for that kind of feeling due to the fact she can not reciprocate.

Oh she likes him, but that's it just likes him There is nothing wrong with that but his feelings are way more serious then hers. Still I am in the middle trying to bring these two people together because I want every one to be happy. Man I'm stupid.

This one day it happens the day where I got a kiss. My first sexual encounter with him. It was amazing. He looked at me with a voice of a sex god he asks me can he kiss me. With out hesitation I whimper with an ok. My head was whirling I actually saw stars. He made my entire body tingle. That kiss went threw my body like electricity. It was wonderful.

Wow its late will pick it up tomorrow